I had a dream last night that left me feeling empty when I awoke. I've had several dreams very similar to this one. Each time I am somehow back in time and aware that my husband is going to take his own life, but no matter what I do, the end is always the same. No matter what I do, in the end he always takes his life either the same way he really did or in a different way.
I'm having one of those days now where I miss him so much. I'm not angry right now... just feel hurt and alone. As bad as our marriage was at times and as many times as he hurt me, I want it all back. I'll take it all back to have him here.