Leave Out All The Rest

This is a song from Linkin Park's Minutes to Midnight album and it's one of my favorites. When I hear this song it really sounds like someone is telling my Eric's story and reminding me to remember the good over the bad.

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

Dreams

I had a dream last night that left me feeling empty when I awoke. I've had several dreams very similar to this one. Each time I am somehow back in time and aware that my husband is going to take his own life, but no matter what I do, the end is always the same. No matter what I do, in the end he always takes his life either the same way he really did or in a different way.

I'm having one of those days now where I miss him so much. I'm not angry right now... just feel hurt and alone. As bad as our marriage was at times and as many times as he hurt me, I want it all back. I'll take it all back to have him here.